JustSyai

I will never forget when I was modeling and I was out to eat with some friends afterwards and one of them said, " You look like a whole different person, I almost didn't recognize you"! That didn't sit well with me. I don't want to look like someone else, I want to look like me. I am glad that I don't look like some of the things that I have been through and I still look young enough for people to think my youngest and oldest daughters and I are sisters. They can't stand that! Truth be told, I LOVE IT!!!   Sometimes as women in Christ we feel as though we have to have the outward appearance on point at all times to ensure we look Holy and all put together. Then on the inside we are dying, crying, broken, begging and pleading for help. Afraid to ask people to pray for us and not wanting to pray for ourselves because that would make it real. Why do we continue to live this beautiful lie? To please people in the church? To have people thinking we got it a...

Today was a rough day, rougher than my normal day. I had the urge today to want to socialize and be around good people, laugh, have intellectual discussions, eat good food and just not be in the house. Today I missed my family and close friends who I have not been able to see since the pandemic started. Today was rough day and I admitted to myself that I was not okay today. Just recently I took a test that confirmed, I am an ambivert. I am okay with being home and isolated like most introverts, a good book or a ball of yarn, hook and movie has been doing me great. Today that extroverted side of me was calling for attention. I wanted to be around people so bad, to the point that I was willing to wear a mask and gloves in ninety degree weather, just to fulfill that urge. However, I decided to come home, why you ask? Because, I am a mom and a wife and as much as the extrovert in me wanted to be out and about, my home and the care of it comes first.     I have been trying my bes...

The news of another black man being killed by the police (George Floyd) is all over the headlines and people like me are understandably angry, hurt and just   frustrated. I have had to explain to my children the careless and insensitive actions of others and again talk about how they should interact when they are in the presence of a police officer, how they should walk in the neighborhood we live in, toys they can and cannot play with, clothing they can and cannot wear and the talking goes on and on and on. My son asks "Mommy, what can we do"? My response, "Son we are believers in Christ so we pray".   People who don't see through our scope of lens may ask why are we frustrated, what have you really gone through to make you mad. I cannot speak for everyone, however being an Afro-Latina, I often have been met with racist comments and actions. For example, I have been told, you don't look like you have Puerto Rican in you, are you sure you weren't ado...

Hello Loves! Let me take this opportunity to introduce myself and welcome you all to my blog. I am so thankful that you stopped by. My name is Syaidah, just like the famous singer-songwriter Siedah Garret, but you can call me Syai (pronounced Sigh). I am a Christian, a wife, a mother of 3 children, a lover of all things fabric, yarn and music, lastly but certainly not least, I am a writer.   I have been writing for years, it started as journaling and slowly turned into mini articles. I would start to write about my feelings, prayers and the Lord would give me scriptures to add in. Then I would be in church listening to the word, suddenly I would get a download from heaven and I would quickly jot it down so I could write about it when I got home. The urge to write would burn in my mind, flow in my thoughts or replay over and over at the most inopportune times, until I put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard. The name Just Syai came forth because I found that I was losing myself....