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The Beautiful LIE



I will never forget when I was modeling and I was out to eat with some friends afterwards and one of them said, " You look like a whole different person, I almost didn't recognize you"! That didn't sit well with me. I don't want to look like someone else, I want to look like me. I am glad that I don't look like some of the things that I have been through and I still look young enough for people to think my youngest and oldest daughters and I are sisters. They can't stand that! Truth be told, I LOVE IT!!!

 

Sometimes as women in Christ we feel as though we have to have the outward appearance on point at all times to ensure we look Holy and all put together. Then on the inside we are dying, crying, broken, begging and pleading for help. Afraid to ask people to pray for us and not wanting to pray for ourselves because that would make it real. Why do we continue to live this beautiful lie? To please people in the church? To have people thinking we got it all together? To convince ourselves that we got it all together? This beautiful lie will not get us into heaven, this beautiful lie only fulfills the eyesight and pleasure of others. This beautiful lie will have us believing that if we continue to look like we holy, act like we holy that we are holy. We would have missed the recipe of salvation in wanting to please others before we please GOD.

 

Yes it is okay not look like what you been through, but that comes after you have been through it. When you playing holy it is hard to not look like what you going through because make-up can only hide so much. Your actions can only hide so much, even your speech, can hide so much. Eventually if someone hits the right button or as my Bishop used to say, mash that bug hard enough, the truth of what you really are will come out. You may be able to fake out people, but you can't fake God, because he looks at the heart.

 

He knew what you were before you were in your mother's womb, so who are we really fooling? Not GOD!! So while we continue to have on everything to live a beautiful lie for the people and for ourselves, we are not pleasing God and hurting ourselves and our souls in the process. Break down that wall of false security and love yourself enough to go to God and completely trust him to fix how you are feeling on the inside. Allow God your father to show you true and unconditional love. Stop trying to clean yourself up and allow him to do the cleaning, the healing, the redeeming and the forgiving. At some point the lie will become a truth and who wants to damn themselves to hell because of trying to live a lie.

 

I am not a person that deals with make up and the such. You may find me with some cute lip gloss or tinted Chap Stick. That is really about it. I used to model and the heavy make-up that would take hours to get off my skin, messed up some darn good towels and caused endless breakouts annoyed the mess out of me. Even my hair is pretty lowkey, I have had a wig, weaves, relaxers, extensions but I have found that my natural hair suits me just fine. The versatility it gives me allows me to change it up just enough to give me something new but allows me to still be just me, and that is all I want to be, Just ME. The way God wants me to be for Him, for His Glory and for His will.

 

Love

 

Just Syai


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