Hello Lovely People! I know it is has been a while but let me catch you up on life! I have returned to the workforce and it has been a doozy. I work in the healthcare field and even though I am not a direct care employee, my days can be very long. Sometimes I get home with just enough energy to ask the kids and husband how their days were, prepare and eat dinner, clean up and spend time with the husband before I knock all the way out for the night. My time has been so stretched and some days I don't know if I am coming or going. This pandemic doesn't make it any better as I have been homesick for the past 6 months.
I made the tough decision to not only go back to work but to send my children back to school, face to face. It was one of the hardest decisions my husband and I had to make and I literally cried over it. Since I was back to work and my husband working full-time from home (literally on zoom calls all day until maybe 6 or 7 every evening) we would be up until 9pm sometimes 10pm to finish school work. Our weekends were checking the work as well to ensure we didn't miss anything and then more time to complete assignments to avoid points being deducted for lateness. It was unfair to my children and unfair to my husband and I. There was no balance, they were home but working and truth be told, we were constantly contacting the teacher to further explain things that we had issues with. We were not failing at homeschool but we were struggling to stay above the threshold and struggling to maintain our sanity. We were all tired and my husband and I had to sit down and really come to terms with what would be best for our family. So we, prayed, had faith that they would be protected while not in our eyesight and sent them back.
This transition has not had it's own issues, the numbers are beginning to rise, we get a notification every time someone in their schools have confirmed a person with the virus and truth be told, it is scary. With the help of prayer, we have taken every necessary precaution to remain safe and keep our family out of harm's way, including me getting tested weekly at work. We just never thought that we would still be here, 8 months later, still quarantining, wearing masks, not seeing our close friends, immediate family and worst of all, enduring another wave of rising deaths and sicknesses. BUT GOD!
Life has changed but there is one thing that has remained the same, not wavered, shaken or broken and that is my foundation in the Lord. He continues to show me his love, grace and mercy. I am astounded, amazed and marvel at all he continues to do in the midst of everything. The fact that I can write this and tell you that I am okay, a little tired, but really okay says a lot. Although I cannot go home to hug my grandmother, mother, father, siblings and a host of other family, I can still talk to them and see them with the technology we have. There is nothing that can replace their touch, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, but for now it helps with the sting of it. Knowing that God is covering them like he covers me, keeping them safe and giving them new mercies everyday, it really blows my mind. God is giving me the opportunity to open myself up to new things, new hobbies, new interests and I am loving it!
More to come on this new me and new everything! Take some time this week to not only reflect on caring for yourself but to also give thanks to God for all that he has done. There is someone who would love to be in your shoes, doing what you do and having what you have! We have so much to be thankful for so, never take a day for granted. If this has taught me anything, it is that life is too short. If no one told you today, you are amazing and loved! I promise I won't stay away that long again! Be Blessed, good people!
Love Always
Just Syai
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